Distractions Part 2

In part 1 I explained that you should listen to your inner voice, because ignoring it can cause you harm.  Well distraction 2 is love or so called love, yeah I know, the question that is going on in your head is how can love be a distraction. Well let me explain how. I explained how I was in a good place, in a place where I was growing although I had trials I was still in a good place.  I don’t want you to think that I’m suggesting that it was all the other persons fault because it wasn’t. I am also to blame. I aloud myself to get lost and I also aloud things to happen that I know should not have.  I can only speak from a women or my point of view, but women have a tendency to get lost in a relationship. When I say lost I mean it in every sense of the word completely involved and or absorbed. Making sure the other persons life runs easier even if it makes your own life a little complicated.  Some would say that is unselfish or unconditional love this is true but only when the person still has a part of them selves, that they can call their own. 

Its said that love will have you do things that you never thought you would do, but my question is, is it love or is it acceptance? See I thought I was in love or that I loved the person because I thought they were the one for me but I realized I was in love with the thought of being in love or the concept of love.  Seeking something (acceptance) that I thought I was missing. In doing so I got off the track I was on. I lost myself, my passion, my direction, my goals.  I lost sight of what I was doing. I can only blame myself for doing so. I was supplying his need when my needs were being neglected. 

My heart aches and my soul yearns for more

A yearn that set’s the soul on fire with a burning desire to be with you, our worlds have collided but we were unable to sustain it. So it collapsed right in front of us without us even knowing what had happened. Days became weeks, weeks became months and unknowingly became immune to each other, not caring and not knowing our comings and goings. So our lives became one and two at the same time. Time has lapsed and we have lost our place, standing still in an empty space, longing for each others embrace. Racing for time that’s in its own race, the light in your eyes is now dim, the spark that use to shine my world is now gone.

 Life has a way of showing you things but what happens is that we tend to ignore them or justify the reason to why we do.  I put myself and things I needed and wanted to do on hold so that he could be pleased and eased of discomfort.  If he needed something done and I had to do something I would drop what I was doing or don’t do what I needed to do to do what he needed done. Then out of robotics I started doing things because I knew they needed to be done.  Don’t get me wrong I’m not saying that any of this is wrong, but what I am saying is that make sure you don’t lose you when doing so.  Because when you do you start to resent the person, who they are and what they do.

I feel the emptiness in your touch,

the lack of passion in you embrace and the sternness in your voice when we communicate. How did we get to this unfamiliar place, this place of uncertainty with no clarity? 

How do we get back to your eyes lighting up my world, the fullness in your touch, the passion in your lasting embrace, back to the softness, sweetness and loving voice that melted my heart and warmed my soul.

I have no take on yesterdays, I only long for tomorrows for I don’t want anymore sorrows to wallow in the pit of denials that carry on from the yesterdays.

They say love is blind, but love isn’t blind its use that are. We choose not to see what is in front of us for whatever reason, be it acceptance, for love, companionship or just not wanting to be alone. See love is unconditional and it is not selfish, but when we start taking from that love and never giving into it, it impedes on whatever need is trying to be satisfied.  So not only is it your fault its also the person you are with because they are also choosing not to see to satisfy there own need

A collision of two hearts bouncing off the rails of love,

holding on to past mistakes, trying to embrace life intakes, confused by the feelings they partake. Afraid they will make the same mistakes, so they cruse along,treading on a thin piece of ice daring not to crack or shatter their hearts because they will finally fall apart. So they park themselves next to the spot marked safe so they wont be consumed by the lives they infiltrate.

So make sure that when you love that its not a distraction that takes you off track but a love distraction that helps you on the track you are on!